This was completely unnecessary and for that I am thankful
Sometimes everything is too painful.
It’s hard to remember what I’m living for. And I don’t think the love I receive from my friends or Dekecat can offset the sadness.
But it seems like I’m living for pride and revenge. I don’t want to leave without changing the circumstances of those who have suffered for the better. And I want the people who cause the suffering to be paid back with interest. I want them to suffer at least as much as my loved ones and I have suffered.
Even if my efforts fail and I can’t improve things, I want to take my tormentors down with me.
I want to radiate queerness
I want queer to be an aura around me
I want queer to be such an unmistakable vibe around me that cishets don’t come within 100 feet of me because they’ve been stopped by a queer force field
I want to flow with so much queer power that just walking by an ally wearing a Straight Pride shirt will cause them to instantly choke to death on their own bullshit
treat me like a college textbook. spend lots of money on me but never touch or look at me
no. treat me like your favorite book. keep me by your side, touch my every page, learn all my twists and turns, remember every word I say, even the ones that make you cry
*4-second-long fart noise*